Happy weekend all!
Last night (at app 2am), I recieved a New Friend request in Facebook. Now why he sent it at that time of the morning, I have no idea. Why I looked at it at that time was just an accident (and also something to do with my addiction to my iPhone and all it contains, but that is probably a story for another post!) I happened to be sleeping upstairs in The Ratbag's room, as I have had a cold all week, and tend to sleep rather noisily (or so husband "Fred" says. I dont agree. I think I am one of those sleepers that, if it wasnt for the lump in the bed, you wouldn't know I was there. I used to be - my sister and I shared a room until she moved out to get married - if I had any odd night time noises, she WOULD have let me know. That's what sisters do! So I refuse to believe I am noisy (until the ....um....OCCASIONAL time that I have woken myself up making some sort of wierd noise. But HE moans in his sleep, like a ghost, so he cant complain!!)) So anyway, I have been the one to move out of the matrimonial bed this time, out of genuine concern for my poor hard working husband, just to let him get his sleep (and I really like the bed in The Ratbag's room!!)
But back onto the Friend request! So The Ratbag stirred at 2am-ish, waking me. I turned on my phone, just to check the time (4 year olds tend to not really need a clock in their room! Princess Attitude, however, has THREE. What appointments she would miss if she didn't know the time, I dont know, considering I am the one who gets her everywhere, but at least she can tell the time!). And there it was - a Friend Request from an old boyfriend! Now, being the shy, quiet, retiring type that I was at school and beyond (BAHAHAHAHAHA, I was actually the type who always had written on my reports "would do MUCH better if she STOPPED SOCIALISING occasionally") I actually didn;t have many serious boyfriends. (Probably as I was too busy having casual ones - dont get me wrong, I did NOT sleep around, but I was a bit of a flirt, and did have a lot of fun!) I also met "Fred" when I was 20, so that doesn't leave that much time in between being too young for serious relationships, and getting married! So I have often wondered about this guy, as we had a relationship that began as best of friends in school, went very intense for a year in Uni, then went on-again-off-again until I finished Uni. We had lots of fun together, unfortunately we also had a lot of doozies of arguments, and all in all, really weren't a match made in heaven. I have never regretted breaking up with him (I think he and I took it in turns to break up with each other, but I'll claim the final one), he and I agreed that we weren't meant to be, I have been very happy with my husband, and have also probably (definately) ended up with a FAR better lifestyle that I would have had I stayed with him. So overall, no hard feelings.
So why is it that I have occasionally wondered over the years about him? I've never wanted to be with him again, I have no desire to retreat into my past, I have a good and happy life.......so this makes me think that maybe it is just a pure natural human reaction (I hope so, anyway, I'd hate to think I was giving you all a glimpse into the beginnings of a psychotic stalker type brain!!) I think it may be a bit of (yes, I AM a bad person) wanting to gloat. Just wanting to know that I HAVE done better (which it looks like I definately have!) and also with that slight, vague, blurry thought right at the back of my mind, that I sort of wonder if he regrets it, and has longed for me all his life!! Again, not because I want him, but just because its always nice to be the object of someone's affections! And there is a genuine interest in how he is, just as there was for other school friends!
So I accepted the Friend Request, sent the standard message about "Hello how are you what have you been up to for the past 20 years" type thing, told my husband (didn't want there to be ANY misunderstanding. Not that there would have been. But just in case!), and now am waiting to hear what his life ended up like! And hoping that any Facebook conversations we have all dont get conducted at 2am in the morning!!!
Friday, 27 April 2012
Thursday, 19 April 2012
First cab off the rank...
Well hello there to all of you out in Blog Reader's Land! Welcome to my blog! I can't promise it will be informative, educational, or even entertaining, but what I can promise is that it will be a deep insight into the scary recesses of my mind. Which wont really be that deep as my mind really isn't very deep. Or deep at all. Or even resembling anything more than a shallow pit of meandering musings really. So there you have it. Read at your own peril!!!
I really just started this blog as I waste (sorry, did I just say "waste"??? I meant "invest", of course) a significant part of my day reading other people's blogs. Now I am NOT by any means suggesting that I can do any better. Or even as well. But I figure if I am sitting at my computer anyway, I'm actually better off doing something with these keys in front of me, rather than just constantly scrolling down with the mouse! My poor left hand is atrophying from lack of use (well, slight exaggeration maybe, but I am definately getting eyestrain from doing so much reading on the screen, and the letters on the keyboards really are much bigger!!). So I thought I'd create a blog, just to get these meandering thoughts out of my head (hopefully decluttering it for slightly more important things!) And my sister, the recipient of many of these thoughts but in text message form, will hopefully be thankful that she gets a bit of a reprieve!
A bit about me and the people in my life? "Yes Please", I hear you all yell! I (like approximately 90% of bloggers out there) am a mum, coming up to approaching a milestone birthday (I hear 40 is the new 30. Can we make it the new 20, as at 30 I was pregnant and I really do NOT want to turn 40 and find myself pregnant again! Shudder). Three children: Miss Just-turned-8, Miss 6 (and a half), and The Ratbag, just turned 4. I'll think of more interesting names for them as we go along, right now the only ones I can think of are Princess Attitude, and Sookybum, which are only a snapshot of how I am feeling right now, not in general. Actually Princess Attitude is pretty fitting for her most of the time, but Sookybum is 85% of the time Miss Lovely, Helpful, Kind, Sweet Gentle One, which is a slightly long name. But she's just having a bit of a Middle Child Moment right now, which I understand, I recognise, I appreciate that it is her way of getting much needed attention.....but I hate! I cant say I particularly like Princess Attitude's attitude either, but I can recognise that she will actually end up as the Leader of the Country, if not the World, with this attitude, so I remove myself from her and go read a blog. (Or more often, engage in an argument, that spirals into destructive sarcasm (from me) and screaming (from her) and crying (from.... well, both of us, and probably the neighbours who are slightly sick of hearing about it)) And The Ratbag - well, the name says it all, really! He was such a nice baby, and even a delightful toddler, and then he turned 3. He is still cute, and sweet, but now has noisy, stubborn and (just a tad) spoilt thrown into the mix, meaning that for the past year, he has driven us mad by having a tantrum, then seconds later running up and saying "I wuv you mummy, you're nice and squishy". Keeps us on our toes, really! Helping me (sort of) with the madness of parenthood, is Mr I Work Very Long Hours So Am Not Around Often But Am A Very Good Father On Weekends. Again, a slightly long name, so lets just call him ...... Fred! Not because that is his name, but just because it is a name that I don't know anybody that has it, and it is so far removed from who he is (he's really NOT a Fred at all!) so nobody will recognise him. Not that there is any chance of that anyway, but this is a person who (whom? Really must learn the difference one day) wont even let me mention him on Facebook, in case somebody steals his identity. (Paranoid much?)
So that is the bare bones of the most important people in my life, one of who (whom?) needs to get to swimming lessons in approximately 4 minutes. So I'll post this one now, and see if it actually works!!!
Oh, PS, as the name of my blog suggests, and the content of this post confirms, I am a major procrastinator! So instead of doing the washing, housework, feeding kids, (or even getting them to swimming lessons on time - argh!) I find things like ....blogging! And even when blogging, I managed to say pretty much nothing, and spent a lot of time and probably unneccessary words doing it. So welcome to my thought processes!
I really just started this blog as I waste (sorry, did I just say "waste"??? I meant "invest", of course) a significant part of my day reading other people's blogs. Now I am NOT by any means suggesting that I can do any better. Or even as well. But I figure if I am sitting at my computer anyway, I'm actually better off doing something with these keys in front of me, rather than just constantly scrolling down with the mouse! My poor left hand is atrophying from lack of use (well, slight exaggeration maybe, but I am definately getting eyestrain from doing so much reading on the screen, and the letters on the keyboards really are much bigger!!). So I thought I'd create a blog, just to get these meandering thoughts out of my head (hopefully decluttering it for slightly more important things!) And my sister, the recipient of many of these thoughts but in text message form, will hopefully be thankful that she gets a bit of a reprieve!
A bit about me and the people in my life? "Yes Please", I hear you all yell! I (like approximately 90% of bloggers out there) am a mum, coming up to approaching a milestone birthday (I hear 40 is the new 30. Can we make it the new 20, as at 30 I was pregnant and I really do NOT want to turn 40 and find myself pregnant again! Shudder). Three children: Miss Just-turned-8, Miss 6 (and a half), and The Ratbag, just turned 4. I'll think of more interesting names for them as we go along, right now the only ones I can think of are Princess Attitude, and Sookybum, which are only a snapshot of how I am feeling right now, not in general. Actually Princess Attitude is pretty fitting for her most of the time, but Sookybum is 85% of the time Miss Lovely, Helpful, Kind, Sweet Gentle One, which is a slightly long name. But she's just having a bit of a Middle Child Moment right now, which I understand, I recognise, I appreciate that it is her way of getting much needed attention.....but I hate! I cant say I particularly like Princess Attitude's attitude either, but I can recognise that she will actually end up as the Leader of the Country, if not the World, with this attitude, so I remove myself from her and go read a blog. (Or more often, engage in an argument, that spirals into destructive sarcasm (from me) and screaming (from her) and crying (from.... well, both of us, and probably the neighbours who are slightly sick of hearing about it)) And The Ratbag - well, the name says it all, really! He was such a nice baby, and even a delightful toddler, and then he turned 3. He is still cute, and sweet, but now has noisy, stubborn and (just a tad) spoilt thrown into the mix, meaning that for the past year, he has driven us mad by having a tantrum, then seconds later running up and saying "I wuv you mummy, you're nice and squishy". Keeps us on our toes, really! Helping me (sort of) with the madness of parenthood, is Mr I Work Very Long Hours So Am Not Around Often But Am A Very Good Father On Weekends. Again, a slightly long name, so lets just call him ...... Fred! Not because that is his name, but just because it is a name that I don't know anybody that has it, and it is so far removed from who he is (he's really NOT a Fred at all!) so nobody will recognise him. Not that there is any chance of that anyway, but this is a person who (whom? Really must learn the difference one day) wont even let me mention him on Facebook, in case somebody steals his identity. (Paranoid much?)
So that is the bare bones of the most important people in my life, one of who (whom?) needs to get to swimming lessons in approximately 4 minutes. So I'll post this one now, and see if it actually works!!!
Oh, PS, as the name of my blog suggests, and the content of this post confirms, I am a major procrastinator! So instead of doing the washing, housework, feeding kids, (or even getting them to swimming lessons on time - argh!) I find things like ....blogging! And even when blogging, I managed to say pretty much nothing, and spent a lot of time and probably unneccessary words doing it. So welcome to my thought processes!
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